So this week I have been thinking about what inspires me, and also what deflates me, or takes the wind out of my sails. I think it’s so important that we live our lives inspired because life can be so draining and de-motivating. If life is not a sprint but a marathon, then we need to find ways of staying inspired to make sure we can go the distance.
Now here’s what’s happened of late; when I was church planting in the States I started building up the gear I needed to pursue my worship ministry calling. Then a few weeks ago our house was broken into and all they took was our digital camera and my gig bag of microphones, guitar pedals and recording equipment. Most of that equipment I can’t get here in South Africa and if I could I don’t have the money to replace it. It really felt like an attack on my calling and I felt deflated quite quickly.
I struggled with the whole question of “was this a satanic attack on my call, or if not why did God allow it” Obviously that is always the question right? So I just want to share what the answer has looked like in my life and how I’m fighting to stay inspired.
I went before Father and had to start by confessing just how fed-up (you can insert your own angry words here) I was with Him. I then asked Him what He was doing or where He was when the thieves were in our house. Then He replied…
He reminded me of how easily we rely on things (read equipment) to makes us look better or even be more effective in ministry. I felt like He was saying to me that He is asking me to come very simply to Him in worship.
I also felt Him say that just as when Moses would lay down his staff God would use it mightily, but when he picked it up it turned back to the staff, that He was asking me to do the same. And so I have although it’s difficult.
Now when I lead worship I still miss that equipment, but it reminds me to come simply, to lay down my gifts, that it’s about Him not about me and most importantly to just LET GO…
BTW they broke the window to get in, thus the inspiration for the picture and heading.